(11-18-2015, 12:37 AM)Terran Wrote: Sorry, but whenever someone brings an IRL problem into an online situation, I have troubles bringing any care for them. We all have issues IRL, but not all of us let them interfere with our online lives. Depression shouldn't lead you to hacking on a server, nor does it take away basic reasoning. I know, I've been on a mixture of pills for blood pressure and mood (Lorazepam, Atenolol, Amlodipine Besylate, Fluoxetine) (Though only one of those is for depression), and while I did some stupid things in the past (My attitude on NTG, etc), it never got the best of me.
I can tell that you really do want to play on the server again, but its a fine line between broken trust and blatantly snapping the rules. If you had found a dupe exploit and abused it, I'd be more lenient, but hacking doesn't seem that easy to do and it really takes a lot of preparation.
I do feel bad for you still, but I feel that if your cognitive reasoning dipped so harshly that you could only get happiness out of ruining others' experiences, (And I apologize if this is really rude, I don't mean it to be and I may be assuming here), but that isn't the best mentality for someone who wants to re-initiate into something that they got kicked out of. Still, I'm not going to yay or nay because I believe that it is 100% up to Brass and his appointed staff members, but I just wanted to get my two cents out. Its good that you're working on beating the emotional issues, but sometimes its better to just step away and take a different route from one you already fell off of. (E.G the server.)
Terran, I understand your reasoning. Every human being is different and we all have different ways of adapting and ways of running our lives. You say sometimes its better to step away and take different route from one you already fell off of. Some times it's not about how you got knocked down, its about how you got up and kept going. If i would have gave up I might not be living today. I understand how bringing real life situations and attempting to explain them to others is almost like taking a orphan case at a personal injury law firm. Almost impossible, but the past eight months have changed my mentality and I have the will to try and not give up.
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