(09-21-2018, 02:03 PM)Black Parade Wrote: Your’re a really kind person, but only to certain people in the community. When you get slayed, you tend to try to find a way out of it , and just like being kind to certain people, you keep and forgive reports for certain people again, keeping reports for some of the weirdest reasons.
It’s ok to dislike some people, but no reason to be toxic or argue with them, That also goes for a lot of other people to.
I read all of your other apps, and all of the comments, and they’re mostly the same story. My advice is to wait, improve yourself more (actually improve yourself) , you’ve been doing better than the first time I met you.
I know its not kosher to respond to your own mem app but I would love to discuss / explain this. I understand it may negatively impact my application, but I accept the consequences at the chance to get the explanation out. A large amount of the people within whom have previously left -1's and are now I have had blocked for a very long time. There are certain people with whom I have provided video evidence to unpoke about excessively toxic behavior and harrassing me in general previously(Keep in mind I am recording 95% of the time I am playing on Garrys Mod via Shadowplay). As a result of their behavior towards myself I leave them blocked, and when rdm happens I just don't forgive because that person has harassed me previously or is generally unkind, and has made my experience on FRG unenjoyable and honestly horrible overall as result.
I absolutely understand where you're coming from and I do agree with you, this isn't fully the appropriate behavior on my part, but when I provide solid evidence of certain players telling me to kill myself IRL or saying things equally as bad and meaning it with full intent and not as a joke, I won't forgive them or unblock them. I have tried unblocking some players, and their behavior has not changed towards me even though I do not interract with them. I have actually just before this application purged my block list and haven't had to re-add anyone to it yet. I have since then been on the receiving end of some pretty offensive insults, but am trying to give these people a chance even though they're showing their true colors still.
Not to throw Axe under the bus, but I think Axe is a perfect example of someone whom previously had a grudge with me and vice versa, but we have definitely worked through it and I now enjoy playing with Axe and it would appear its mostly mutual. I dont treat anyone inherently worse if I do or do not like them. I won't go out of my way to make someone miserable or target them if I'm not a fan of them, but if I do get rdmed and there wasnt a concrete reason behind it I won't forgive the people who make my play time experience unpleasant. A lot of my friends that I do play with will playfully/jokingly rdm me and vice versa for the memes, but you're damned right I don't keep reports on them. Moral of the story is there absolutely are a handful of people who aren't a fan of me and vice versa, thats fine. You're not required to like me, but unless you've done something to harm me or insult me, I'll have no issues with you. I feel that I am plentiful kind and helpful to those who aren't spewing insults at me anytime I'm on. A lot of the people who are leaving the -1's are the same people as before, and like I mentioned they either haven't played with me in a very long time or I've had them blocked and simply don't interact with them for fear of being insulted and belittled again. If you are one of these people and you are unblocked try interacting with me like a normal human being next time you see me on, I'm sure you'll be surprised at the response/behavior. I am absolutely working hard to change the views people have of me and the behavior I use while on FRG, but if someone is constantly belittling you, insulting you, or making your experience miserable, can you really blame someone for having a chip on their shoulder against them? I've cleaned up my block list in order to try and give some of the people I am referring to an additional chance, and many of them are people who have left -1's on this application. I implore those of you within whom I am referring to give me another chance as I am doing for you, and keep in mind the language conveyed if we do interract. That is all.
