Kudos for finding my alt

[Beebee1303]

Cobalt, I earnestly want to help you.

Please seek some help. From what I've been taught and understand, you could have an ineffective/maladaptive coping mechanism. You want to be in this community that you have burned all the bridges too. Also FRG being the only game you can enjoy and will break their rules to enjoy your time. This isn't healthy, I would highly suggest going to your therapist or finding one and talk about this. Perhaps they can have a plan of action/care for you and will help you find enjoyment in other actions. I am worried that this will lead to depression or fall into hasher depression.

Please, put this community behind you, seek some help, and improve.